Focus

I never did work out and this week because ofย continued jet lag. This week felt really long and I thought to just take it easy. This weekend I feel somewhat back to normal except my eating habits could be better. All part of rest and recuperation. Now that I’m writing, I realize I haven’t eaten fast food in so long! Well, consistently I mean. I stopped by Taco Bell on the way home from my trip because I was REALLY tired then.

I somehow have lost 10 pounds. My goal is to lose another 5 in this next month (end of May) to make a total of 15 pounds! Friends have commented that I look like I have lost weight. I honestly attribute this to the lack of drinking. When I drank, I felt heavy and would not eat the best. I also felt lazy and depressed. I feel great now!

Since I’m just back from a 10 day vacation, I really want to save save save! I have a baseline savings and really want that to grow. I feel like I still do a lot of right now as opposed to future me. I’m trying so hard to not spend on my credit card and want to make that my goal for the month of May. Don’t spend on the credit card. I get gas on it because of the return, but I don’t think I’ll do that this month. A monthly credit card cleanse! I really think I charge too much on it without deducting from my earnings. I also pay it off every month (no matter the damage) and then think, “Hmm could have paid myself.” Then I get a little…A LOT disgusted with myself because I did that cycle over again.

I am enjoying losing weight, saving, and traveling. All of these things I have to remember that I am doing slowly to learn and grow in each department. I can’t build it in a day and I think the slow process is helping me realize more fully some of the mistakes I’m making along the way. I’d rather be consciously aware of my spending habits and really thinking about the way I can change them as opposed to mindless spending…trying to move away from that!

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Health

An entire month of being conscious of spending?! I can’t believe I did it! Saying “no” to things to reach a personal goal is really empowering and makes goals seem so much more achievable. 
I’m ready to apply “no” to health and fitness. Saying “no” to others priorities really means saying yes to my goals, values, etc. I used to do things out of guilt to please other people. In fact, I still get those feelings even though I might not act on actually pleasing the other person; the feelings of wanting to/anger/resentment are there. This has been a massive problem not only in my financial life, but in my fitness life as well.
My fitness life took a back burner in December due to constant travel. In January I really wanted to focus on finances. One goal at a time. Baby steps! Now that I feel secure in my ability to maintain finance goals, I can move to health and fitness goals. I started back up on p90x on Friday and did a double day yesterday. I’m ready for it! Let’s do this! 

Needs. And a no-spend update.ย 

Food is a need.

Thank God there was harsh winter weather all weekend. This helps not spend money out! ๐Ÿ™Œ
I spent an evening with a friend and we watched Girl on a Train (๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘) and some YouTube. This made for a really cheap catch up date – FREE DATE. She’s got a really comfy place too.
Spending…
I said I was only going to buy $150 worth of food. I went well over my budget. I bought $61 worth of fresh sushi grade fish (way too much and I am basically sushied out!) I went to Costco and spent $137. Costco was a fun trip though. I bought meat and separated it and froze a great majority of it. I bought other food items too; I bought items I knew would last in the freezer. I also made a trip to Trader Joe’s. I bought my favorite night time tea, snack foods and beverages, and quick frozen meals (aka the meals I can just grab when I’m feeling lazy) for $50. I had to go into the next biggest city to take care of my car care and stopped by Taco Bell for something that could tie me over, $2. I’m rounding here. If my calculations are corrext, I spent an extra $100 on groceries. For me this is no biggie because I could easily spend that on dinner and drinks out with friends – the extra $100 – for only 4 hours of hang out. Now, I have about 3 months worth of food for myself.
I’ll admit that being responsible for my finances is a bit foreign to me. I never used to keep my fridge stocked. Granted, I use to live with roomies and so one shelf doesn’t really allow to have a stockpile. Many people on the web disagree with holding a Costco membership as a single person. I personally appreciate what I was able to purchase. I know everytime I open the fridge, I am reassured that I have food to eat. Maybe that’s what was missing – that reassurance. There’s some sort of safety (and less anxiety) in knowing I have food to eat. Actually, in a very much habitual way, I food prepped two take-to-work lunches. Like, “I have so much shit to work with!”
I feel like I spent a lot of money and I did. When the register reads that $137 is due, it was an eye opener. When I previously went shopping, $20 here and there, I didn’t really have a conscious mind of adding everything up.

In a moment of being alone with “nothing” to do I cleaned part of my place. I took two trash bags out. I wasnt feeling like I was on top of the world after cleaning. I just fet that I had done something that benefited me and was not something I used to avoid. I literally had nothing to do but feel I made a good choice. I didn’t focus on buying the healthiest food items. However, for me, it is healthy to do things I would normally avoid doing that are good for myself. 

We are only 9 days into January and so I’m looking forward to what the next couple of weeks brings.